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On Blogging.

August 19, 2011 Leave a comment

I could not exactly remember when I started blogging but it was sometime in high school when I began exploring the internet. I started writing my thoughts and experiences on the famous Friendster then. What I liked about blogging is that I was able to air out all my sentiments and people, mostly my friends, would comment and suggest on what I’m writing about. When I learned about Blogger in college, I continued my online diary there.

However, I was not able to sustain it since I became very busy in College. I forgot my Blogger account and focused more on Multiply. I did not religiously blog anymore.

It was only last year when I became interested in blogging again. In Manila, I was able to meet my friend from Iloilo who’s having a part time job online. I learned that she was a blogger and gave me the link of her website. When I saw it, I was motivated to do the same thing. I created my personal blog right away.

I never knew that the blogging community is very big already until I met CdoBloggers. I began to appreciate blogging more, especially on its impact on people as a social media.  Not only that, I realized that blogging now has leveled up from how we perceive it before. Today, it’s not just having an online diary but taking it as business as well. Yes, there is money in blogging and anyone could just explore its financial opportunities.

Right now, I am still in the process of learning a lot about this financial aspect in blogging. And I am very much willing to learn more. This does not mean I will delete and ignore my current blog tough but it also does not mean I will prevent myself from creating another blog. A niche blog that is.

Looking forward to more blogging years ahead!

 

 

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I promise.

 

I promise to make you happy for it’s the only thing I want you to be.

I promise to cheer you up in times when you are sad.

I promise to keep calm even when I get mad at you.

I promise to think first before I will say anything.

I promise to be lonely when things go wrong between us.

I promise to communicate because I value everything we talk about.

I promise to accept you always even if you’re not my ideal man.

I promise to be honest.

I promise to let you know your faults.

I promise to point out your mistakes so that you will know what to change.

I promise to make you aware on times when you hurt me.

I promise to tell you everything you need to know.

I promise to let you stay who you are.

I promise to be just the same person you met the first time.

I promise to be faithful for you are the only one.

I promise to love you as long as it takes.

 

If in times I let you feel so down, please remember that no matter what happens,

I will always be the same person who loves only you and who loves you so much.

Happy 1st month love! 

 

 

 

Crazy little thing called LOVE.

June 3, 2011 1 comment

Do you remember the first time you said you love me?

I was in awe when I read it. Though it was only written in that little chatbox, it never failed to send shivers down my spine. It was direct to the point. No pretensions. No holds-barred.  Just plain expression of what you feel. It was more than beautiful.

That was 11pm of April 26, 2011.

 

Do you remember the first time you wrote me a letter?

 When I received your first letter, I believed you were sincere then. I asked myself “Where can I find a guy like that?” I thought letters are obsolete now but you’ve proven it wrong. They’re the sweetest thing a girl like me could ever receive. Even if it took you a long, long time to finish one, it doesn’t matter. The effort and time is well-appreciated and well-loved. The output? Way way beyond my expectation. It was wonderfully made.

That was 9pm of May 13, 2011.

 

Do you remember the first time you cry because of my letter?

 We started exchanging letters of love. I couldn’t help but reply every time you send me one. I don’t know why. One thing’s for sure; every thing comes from my heart. The second time I wrote a letter, I was shocked with your reaction. You cried. You cried like a baby. If it was not true, you’re a good actor then. But I know it’s real. And those were tears of joy. I did not know you’re emotional. But I was happy to know you liked it.

That was 8pm of May 26, 2011.

 

Do you remember the day when I received your first gifts?

This was a surprise! I never really thought you were very serious about me until I met your grandpa and aunt at my own house. It was an early Sunday morning and everything came in yellow. I did not know what to say. I was speechless. I realized then, you did all the possibilities to reach out. Even if you’re so away, you made your presence here. So far yet so near.

That was 10 am of May 29, 2011.

 

Do you remember the first day we became official?

 That day when I met your grandpa and aunt, I’ve made a decision to give you a chance. After all, I was slowly falling in love with you. Why wait for months when we can have it now? Many people would think negative about long-distance relationships. Many people would judge. Many people would question. But who cares?! It’s not about them. It’s about us. The future isn’t there yet. What is important is NOW. We’re happy and that is all that matters. When I finally said I love you too, the journey began.

That was 6am of June 1, 2011.

 

I don’t care what other people say now. We will work this out. We will make this possible. We will try to endure.

Right, love?

And it never been the way it used to be. That’s how love works.

May 25, 2011 2 comments

Before, I was alone. Now, I keep on communicating with you.

Before, I was lonely. Now, I’m happy.

Before, I was uninspired. Now, I’m inspired.

Before, I was stressed. Now,  I enjoy.

Before, I was numb. Now, I am emotional.

Before, I was always frowning. Now, I smile even if I’m tired.

Before, I thought of becoming single forever. Now, I am thinking of a happy ending.

Before, I wake up each day ordinarily. Now, I wake up wanting to read your early morning sms.

Before, I sleep at night feeling dull and bored. Now, I sleep at night feeling light from our phone conversation.

Before, I lived a routinary life. Now, I look forward to each new day.

Before, I was sane. Now, I’m crazy (And you know  what that means).

My life was different. Then, we’ve crossed our paths. Things changed. And it never been the way it used to be.

I guess, that’s how love works. ❤

Love,

Roxanne

Dear Mr. Now (A letter to him)

May 14, 2011 5 comments

Dear Mr. Now,

When our paths have crossed, I thought you were just going to pass by.

When I’ve come to know you, I thought you will just be another face in the crowd.

When I talked to you, I thought you’re intention was to have fun.

I never thought we’ll click.

I never thought we’ll be close.

I never thought we’ll think of getting to know each other so well.

You’re funny, spontaneous, and happy-go-lucky. Basically, not my type. Not the one I’m looking for. I told myself that. I never entertained the thought of getting close to you.

I was into someone else. I was falling in love with him. I was swoon by his personality. I thought he WAS the one.

But I failed with that person. He was the one who came and left.  So, I give up.

But you came and NEVER left.

You stayed. You’re staying. You chose to stay as long as it takes.

And I just couldn’t help myself but be drawn towards you. I guess that’s how LOVE works.

My first impression about you was completely gone with the wind. Now, I like you for being who you are. Unpretentious, honest, and sincere. And I am mesmerized by that each day.

I wait for your calls. I wait for you to be online. Because you’re part of my system now. You may be far from me, but each time we talk, each time we chat; it feels like you’re just there beside me. No distance can hinder that. You never fail to let me feel how important and special I am to you.

And every time you say “I love you”, I know I have been completely embraced by your genuine sweetness.

And I just can’t wait for that perfect moment when I can already say I love you too.

Love,

Roxanne

So what is this all about?

April 29, 2011 Leave a comment

I dunno.

There is a thing that happens in our lives where we could not exactly identify what is it all about. This thing is a mystery, a story yet to unfold. Exciting, yes, but what to expect is still a blur. We tend to expect for things that will make us happy but along the way, as we journey to that, we sometimes get confused. Because what we really thought could happen may not be the “could-happen” we wanted. We are deceived not by others but by ourselves because we let ourselves fall into that “thing”.

Am I just going round and round?

I dunno.

Why am I writing this?

I’m not exactly sure why.

But the thing is ever since I started blogging and be active online, my life has been in one great turmoil. Don’t get me wrong. I am enjoying its perks, really — especially in meeting people. Wonderful people. People I learned to get along with and people I began to love.

So, whats the con?

Shameless to say but I’m falling in love with one person whom I’ve met online. It’s not on chatting. More on the blogging world. And somehow, I know it’s not good. Me becoming addicted to the internet has led me to this thing which is not supposed to happen. I mean I have a life outside the internet and I could meet a  lot of people there. Plus the fact that the virtual world is not considered permanent.

So, why go with that?

Because I let myself believe his lines. Lines he wrote. Poetic. Romantic. All in that tiny little chatbox. All in that tiny cellphone screen. Yes, all in that. But sadly, in real life, it’s plain opposite. In real life, he’s not the one in that tiny little chatbox anymore. Which is sad, by the way. Because my heart leaps when I see him but he is showing he doesn’t even care. Or maybe he was just pretending to have a sweet mouth (oh, make that a sweet hand) in the net. But in reality, he isn’t. So, that’s it. I don’t know what to expect anymore. That makes the virtual world so deceitful.

So, what happens next?

I dunno. Maybe, I’ll take one step backward. and  more steps backward soon. Because I now realize I have to detach myself from being too close with the “virtual” and go get a real life soon! As for that person, I don’t know if you’ll be part of my reality. If that happens, well and good. If not, I’ll just say hello to earth!

*Did I even make sense? Duh. Will prolly delete this post.

ULILANG TAHANAN Reflection

February 27, 2011 2 comments

Kelan nagiging ulila ang isang tahanan?

ULILANG TAHANAN is a story about a filipino family with a great parent-children conflict. The play shows how parents’ discipline style and management greatly affect children’s thoughts and behavior. The story focuses on the father with an authoritarian way of disciplining his children. Though the reason behind his actions is for the safety and for the behavior of his children to be good, the rules imposed at home is already too much to bear. That’s how his children feel.  The children do not have the freedom to express their selves, to choose their friends, and to decide for whatever they want to be. Though they constantly share their sentiments to their loving mother (who is also very submissive to the decisions of her husband) and concerned uncle, they are just being ignored by their father every time.

On the father’s side, he thinks that giving his children the material things they want is already enough and is making his children happy. He thinks that how he was brought up by his authoritarian parents would also apply to his own children. But on the children’s part, those material things are not enough. What they really want is the understanding, love, and care from their father. His very strict discipline never works for them.

++We can really learn a lot about family from ULILANG TAHANAN.

  • The great role of making the family happy and healthy lies greatly on the parents.
  • Parenting style is important. It affects children.
  • Children need to understand the context of their parents before disobeying them. There might be negative experiences happened to their parents in the past.
  • Both parents and children should have an open mind and heart to accept suggestions and ideas from each of the members of the family. It is best to have a family time. Quality family time.
  • Children should never leave their parents with a heavy heart. There is no PEACE in that.
  • Learn to forgive and forget.
  • Children should remember to acknowledge their parents how bad they may be. After all, they are called PARENTS for a reason.
  • Lastly,  a home is not a home if the members are in conflict. Huwag gawing ulila ang tahanan. Mahalin ito at mahalin ang lahat ng nasa loob nito.

FYI: It was my first time to cry watching a filipino play. The play’s really good. And a second-degree cousin of mine is one of the cast. I’m proud of him. 🙂

 

-The Kagay-anon!-